I believe in love

2010-09-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

It's 12.30am now & I can't sleep.

I always thought that this is the correct decision. Even until now, I know that this is the best way out but somehow I can't help but feel so.....empty?

lol

2010-06-16T14:28:00.003+08:00

Maybe you have not realised it, but the one I am referring to is YOU.

Do you just have nothing to say? Or are you trying to shut me up?

If it's the latter, you are getting what you want because I don't know what to say anymore.

lol

Sigh......

2010-05-25T07:20:00.000+08:00

The more I said, the more foolish I felt.

Maybe I should really just keep quiet & stay away from you.

2010-05-16T21:27:00.002+08:00

Life's short.

I can only keep doing what I think is correct & hope that I will not regret in the future.

2010-05-11T07:23:00.001+08:00

There are somethings that I dont' really quite understand.

Do I appear like some irresponsibility and immature person?

Since young, when life sucks, I told myself life will be better when I get older.
I still remembered years ago my mum keep telling me that life will be better once me and my sis started working.
That's what pushed me to keep looking forward.

Now, both me and my sis are working, life got better, but shits still happen.
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Currently my family is undergoing some.......difficult moments. Does that means that I am not allowed to be happy?

Why can't I spend the money that I earned? I know I should save up for rainy days which I did, but seriously I am very puzzled to be judged when I spent a portion on it on things that I like.

Why can't I buy that bag I like? Or why can't I spend that money on some leisure to keep myself happy?

Someone even asked me why am I still "online" and playing games when that someone heard of my family stuffs. I got speechless for a moment, am I supposed to be crying or whining in self pity in a corner?

All those got me wondering.

Am I not allowed to be happy?

Does spending money and not saving it up makes me less responsible?

Does spending time on leisure makes me less responsible too?

I guess now I am sounding like some immature kid.

Priorities. Yes, I know that.

Choices. Yes, I know that too.

But seriously, life will never be smooth sailing. Shit happens any time. So if that's the case, shouldn't we be always "saving everything up for rainy day"?

If we are to keep having this "everything can wait" mindset, will we come to regret in the future?

Those people who judged me might not agree with my thinking.

I have a question: What makes you think that you are correct? Is there a "perfect way" to live life?

At least I can still safely say that I still know my priorities. I still know what is the limit.

And of course I feel happier.

Friends no more

2010-04-28T22:49:00.003+08:00

I cannot remember the last time I fall out with a friend.

I have always thought that this kind of thing only happens when people are younger and more "childish".

Yes, 1 of my friend just fell out with me recently.

The cause? An April Fool's joke.

To be fair, it was abit mean and she has every right to be angry.

Apologises are not accepted by her too. Fine, she has that right too.

But giving attitude? Sending scarcastic messages? Sorry, not acceptable.

Why should any of us continue to put up with your missy temper and attitude especially when you have no intention to forgive us?

You find it fun?

It's not like we killed your parents or your favourite pet.

It's not even like anybody else who is not involved knew of this joke.

Whatever. Yeah we are not friends anymore. Got it. Point taken. kthxbye.

This made me clear of 1 thing: Relationships are so vulnerable.

Headache

2010-04-22T06:57:00.001+08:00

So many had happened over the pass weeks that got me very stressed & dejected.

I guess It was too naive of me. I expected things to be very simple & easy but sadly I'm wrong.

My family don't seem to understand why I am so stressed up by them. There are so many things I have to shoulder just because I am the elder daughter in the family.

I feel so tired at times.

Sometimes, I feel like I can't seem to find someone I can talk to. Everyone seems to be busy with their own life & their own problems. Is this part of growing up?

I don't really expect my friends or people around me to be understanding to me. Seriously, how many people will understand?

Anyway, I am crossing my fingers that everything will turns out well.

Hopefully at the end of all these, I will be a stronger person.

我不贪心...

2010-03-18T11:59:00.004+08:00

这样就够了...

萧敬腾洛克先生演唱会

2010-03-14T16:52:00.003+08:00

I have been looking forward to his concert.

And finally, it's here yesterday!

萧敬腾洛克先生演唱会.

The "敬" and "腾" board which my sis and I was holding belong to a "super fan" from Taiwan. She told us that she will go to every of 萧敬腾 concert and event.

I cannot imagine the time, effort and money taken to "follow" him to different countries. I don't think I am able to understand but I respect her for all the effort taken to support him.

The concert started with his "王子的新衣" and everyone got really high. There wasn't a single moment of "冷场" throughout his concert. (excluding the appearance of his special guest haha).
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When a recording of him making a 2 minute speech to his audiences was being played, everyone laughed as he don't really know what to say. He still didn't talk much, but I think somehow that what makes him unique. He might not seem to have a good sense of humor, but he's funny in his own ways.
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My favourite part is when he started singing & dancing a series of songs like "看我72变", "爱的抱抱" and "Nobody".
Another part that was really good was when he sang "王妃". The concert was coming to an end and everyone got really high at that song.
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All I can say is that 萧敬腾 really can sing. I enjoyed every bit of his concert from the start till the end and I am already looking forward to his next concert in Singapore!

2010-02-26T08:42:00.002+08:00

My blog is kinda dead -_-''

I don't really seem to have the time to sit down & post..but I will try!

Scam?

2010-01-29T07:26:00.008+08:00

Is this a scam?

I think it is...bloody hell..I stupidly went to click on the link & keyed in my email & pw.

:D

2010-01-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

Grrrrrrrrrr....HTML codes are killing me.

So tired...super busy...but super excited too!

Hehe I shall not reveal anything unless everything is completed!

Random Thoughts

2010-01-16T08:27:00.002+08:00

I wonder...have I really change so much??

I realised alot of people are not able to recognize me when they saw me.

& it's not even those "long-lost" primary or secondary school friends that I met. It's poly mates & even people who have met me like a few months ago?

海派甜心

2010-01-13T23:22:00.001+08:00

Are you watching 海派甜心?

I am so addicted to it!

Go watch it. You won't regret!

The Contradictor

2009-12-31T18:52:00.000+08:00

One moment you are complaining about how the person's action pissed you off.

And the next moment?

You find yourself behaving like the one you are complaining earlier.

Funny isn't it?

People loves to pick on others without acknowledging that they themselves are not any better.

The Whiner

2009-12-31T17:10:00.005+08:00

She says....

"My friend is earning more than me.

My current company sux and I wanna work in a MNC.

Other people get to dress down on friday. Why can't I?

So-and-so is always picking on what I do.

So-and-so dislike me and tried to "sabo" me.

I am so old.

I can't do part-time studies because I am poor.

So-and-so can because they earn more than me.

So-and-so can because she got a boyfriend & mother to provide for her.

Even someone like him can get a girlfriend & yet I am single. Haix life is sooooooo unfair.

Haix so sad..So-and-so got husband / boyfriend to come drive them home after work while I have to take the train.

I am poor, getting old, has no boyfriend and stuck in a sucky job with everyone against me."

She is someone who whines about her life almost everyday.

Nothing satisfies her.

She is unhappy with everything and anything.

I always got an urge to cover my ears & scream at her to stop it whenever she starts whining.

Talking to her makes me feel like my life is in shit too.

I tried not to think of my problems & tried to be positive but she makes me feel down.

Being negative is so scary. Especially so when all you do everyday is wallow in self-pity.

It will slowly eat you up & finally ruin you.

You won't noticed that you are partly to blame because you will continue to blame life, blame fate, blame everything that you can get your head on.

You are such a bad influence. Do you know?

A lame one

2009-12-24T23:44:00.004+08:00

This is a lame post about 3 culprits & 1 victim (which don't really seem like one) which I wrote out of boredom. HAHA!
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Ms "Victim" decided to be difficult when the 3 culprits asked her for ideas for her xmas gifts and she replied "帅哥"...
For the next few days, she continued to torture the 3 of them with her "I want 帅哥 for xmas", "Gift me a 帅哥!" lines.
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The culprits had no choice but to oblige. So they brainstormed & discussed on various possibilities but to no avail.
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"Hmmm since Ms Victim tried to make things difficult for us, let's do something that will make her think twice the next time she tries to be difficult!" The smart culprits thought.
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AND.....so the big day is here! Look at how the culprits decorate Ms Victim's desk. All the 帅哥s on her table for everyone & anyone who passby her table to see.
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Ms Victim got a shocked of her life when she saw the "presents" on her table.
"So paiseh! Faster help me to remove it lah!" She wailed.
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The culprits tried to grab hold of the opportunity to take some unglam picture of Ms Victim but they underestimated her.
Upon seeing the camera, she immediately put on her best smiles.
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The culprits then asked for Ms Victim's feedback & if she wanted more 帅哥s for her coming birthday.
"Nonono! 我后悔了......" cried Ms Victim.
Yes! The culprits do not have to listen to anymore of her 帅哥 ~~craps~~ comments!

大饼脸

2009-12-22T20:22:00.002+08:00

I was going through some of my past photos & I got a shocked.

I DIDN'T REALISED MY FACE USED TO LOOK SO FAT CAN?!

This photo was taken in Oct 08............OMG 大饼脸!

Anyway, for the I-cannot-remember-how-many no. of time, I am not on some special diet or slimming package to lose weight OK????
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I managed to lose weight because of my braces & removal of teeth (7 in total in case you are wondering).
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So please stop asking me... Hmmm or maybe I should really start on some special diet.......-_-''

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2009-12-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

Flossing with braces on is so frustrating!

This is totally random........

2009-12-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

but I am so proud of myself. I managed to finish wrapping all of the xmas gift today!

Maybe it's not really that big a deal but I fail at wrapping gift ok?! My wrapping skill is lousy to the extend that my colleagues laughed at me -_-''

I suspect it runs in my blood because my mum & sis fail at wrapping gift too.
BUT...after today, I think I have become the "professional wrapper" in my family.
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Look at my masterpieces!

B&B

2009-12-20T21:57:00.007+08:00

The last baby of the year who just turned 22 3 days ago.............

Yes, we are getting older, but we will always be close friends no matter how old we are! RIGHT?

And I hope you all love the xmas gift that I had made.....because I love it!
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It might be abit unoriginal, but I think it will be fun when we look back at this photo frame (& the previous 2 photo frames) a few years down the road & laugh at how we look like now :)

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Next year whose turn will it be to "gift" the rest of us??? :D

Slow down your pace..

2009-12-16T22:44:00.005+08:00

I was in SGH this afternoon & I can't help taking this photo when I looked up at the sky.

Isn't the sky & the clouds lovely?

Maybe this is a very common sight, but amist the busy lifestyle, how many of us really do look up at the sky & remember how pretty the sky actually is?

帅哥s.......card

2009-12-13T23:09:00.008+08:00

I remembered asking my colleague what she wanted for the coming xmas...

Me: I have no idea what xmas gift to get you. Can you give me some idea??? Tell me what you want?
Colleague: I want 帅哥....
Me: Serious la

Colleague: 帅哥...................

After the "quite senseless" conversation, I was wondering what can I get her.................when an idea struck me!

Well, obviously I couldn't really get her a 帅哥 right????

Hmm so I thought the best I can do (other than buying a gift), is to make her a card full of 帅哥s!!!

So ~~childish~~ SMART & CREATIVE right?! haha!

Anyway, I spent the whole afternoon doing it & this is the fruit of my labour...haha!

The Front Page

Mainly featuring her favouriteS: "Edward", 吳尊 and "仔仔" 周渝民.

The Content (or whatever it is)

More of her favouriteS: "Edward" & 吳尊, but I was afraid that she might get bored of them so I decided to give her other choices like 羅志祥, 炎亞綸, 林俊杰 etc.

The Back

More variety for her...so I thought how about some multi-national 帅哥s? Korea, HK, Taiwan & local ones! hahaha

Ok, I know this might seem kinda lame & childish (the last time I did something like this was when I am in secondary school?)...but I believe this card will give my that particular colleague & the others a good laugh, so why not? :)

& to be frank, I had fun doing it!

This is a scary virtual world

2009-12-12T11:32:00.002+08:00

Facebook is so scary can!

So many information available for people to fish out.

& I am not a stalker! I am just being curious.

Xmas is coming!

2009-12-12T07:42:00.001+08:00

I am actually kinda looking forward to xmas.
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Not because I enjoyed it. Well, I don't hate it (of coz) with the Public Holiday & half-day. What is there to complain, really?
But because this year I had feel so uncreative that I decided to make xmas gifts for my love ones!
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Hmm.......let me count....................I made like 10 of them!

& I am looking forward to give it to them & see their ~~un-~~surprised faces. HAHA!

My dearest B&B & ahSiaos (if you are reading this),

Please look forward to receiving my present!

& please act like u all are so surprise can (even if you are not)!

Have you ever thought just maybe.....

2009-12-12T07:15:00.007+08:00

tsk-tsk

2009-11-30T23:27:00.004+08:00

My new addiction....................

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I simply can't stop buying mask!!!

I have bought like erm..14 masks in the past 4 days???

So.........if you are intending to buy me some xmas present (haha!)....now you know what to get for me.

OH & I prefer the whitening type. haha

OK time to zzzzz

New Moon

2009-11-30T22:50:00.002+08:00

The Twilight Saga, New Moon is up.

I got so excited that I immediately called up my B&B to watch this highly anticipated movie.

In the end, only Limin & Kelvin are able to make it.

Like what Kel said, "expected la" haha

Overall, I think the movie was "OK"...not fantastic though.

Even though I did felt bored halfway through the movie, I think New Moon did more justice to the book as compared to Twilight.

Some people might think that Twilight was way better, but somehow I prefers New Moon.

If Edward didn't leaves Bella, how would Bella knows how much she loves him?

After Edward left, Bella knew she had another choice. Jacob who can be her "sun"..her "personal sun". She can lead a normal life if she wants to. Despite knowing all these, she still chose Edward.

Anyway, isn't this what this type of romance story is all about? Bella would never choose Jacob. She will always love Edward.

Just like we all knew Romeo and Juliet will always love each other. Right??

Long weekend? NO

2009-11-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

I am so glad that tml is a public holiday!

This whole week had simply passed so fast.

I barely remember what I did except for work. I used to think that my colleague is kinda paranoid over work but now I can truly understand how she feels.

I go home everyday thinking of what needs to be done the next day.

I woke up in the morning and start thinking about what are to be done (again) and which task should I start first when I reached office.

Nothing seems to be on my mind except for work related stuffs -_-''

I realised I have become another "paranoid over work" person!

OK I shall try not to think about my work for the time being. I need to relax!

No long weekend for me though, have to work on saturday -_-''

BUSY

2009-11-24T07:21:00.002+08:00

It's scary how much you reminds me of people I don't want to remember..... -_-''

Anyway, glad that long weekend is coming! So many things that I want to do & need to be done.

But first, let me get through this few days 1st. I can foresee I will be super busy with work.

Hopefully I do not need to bring anymore work back home......

BTW....anyone eargerly waiting for Twilight New Moon's movie???

Let's go & watch ok?!

My friends

2009-11-09T16:03:00.003+08:00

I was packing my room when I found this!

Look at how young we were during those days...

We have aged so much!!! haha

<3

2009-11-05T07:26:00.000+08:00

I am so addicted to Twilight!

Currently finishing the 1st book & moving on to the next :D

Lame~

2009-10-29T23:21:00.003+08:00

I love my new "nerd look".

Tell me it's hard to recognize me when you see my photo.

Just tell me to make me feel better?~

自我安慰. hahaha

On a lighter note....

2009-10-25T20:28:00.003+08:00

My hp which spoilt just because I tried to send photos via bluetooth was fixed & I got it back on yesterday!

All my data stored inside the phone was gone, but was still glad to get my phone back.

Anyway I went back to my dentist (because my metal wire came off again -_-'') & he help me to put some rubber thing on my bracket. I thought it will cause me pain or discomfort but surprisingly it didn't!

Somehow I can see that my teeth have shifted, & I feel super ugly again. HAHAHA. Looking forward to my appointment next month~

Back to reality........

2009-10-25T20:04:00.005+08:00

我发现原来喜欢上一个人可以让自己变得好脆弱。

那是一种多么令人害怕的感觉。

我们都知道希望越大，失望就会越大。

可是很多时候我们却不知不觉地让自己的心装满了希望。而当希望落空时，才突然发现当初的自己有多傻。

早知如此，又何必当初呢？

好失望，真的好失望。

可笑的竟然是我们连朋友都不是。也不会是。

2009-10-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

Crossing my fingers..........

1more week. Wendy is.........

2009-10-15T07:05:00.000+08:00

hoping that something nice will happen.

But I am not that hopeful.

Somehow life seems to be very "sian" nowadays.

How did you spend your mid-autumn festival?

2009-10-04T18:34:00.003+08:00

I spent mine lighting candles; playing with sparklers; burning leaves & candle boxes.

Smoky & smelly, but it was fun.

I suddenly feel so young again. haha

萧敬腾 - 王妃

2009-10-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

Recently I got a chance to sit down & listen to 萧敬腾's 王妃 album.

His 1st song in this album that I heard was 王妃 & I immediately love it.

I decided to listen to the rest of his songs with a open mind.

I dare not have too much expectations as I was afraid that I will be disappointed.

In the end I worried for nothing. I love his album & I am now a fan of his!

不管是摇滚的萧敬腾，感性的萧敬腾，还是可爱的萧敬腾，我都喜欢！Hahaha

Have you listen to his album? If not I would strongly recommend you to~

Songs that I highly recommend: 王妃, 小男人大男孩, 我不会爱, 会痛的石头

3rd day with braces~

2009-10-01T22:35:00.005+08:00

Today is such a happy day for me. Finally I can eat more solid food!

Although it hurts but I'm too hungry to care.

YES! NO MORE porridge & mashed potato. I am so sick of it.

Something very unbelievable happen today too which brightens up my day. I hope I am not hallucinating though. =/

2nd day with braces~

2009-09-30T11:18:00.002+08:00

My 2 years of braces journey had just started!

Kinda excited & happy.

I also cannot remember where I find the courage to do it.

I feel super ugly now hahaha. But it will be worth it!

TO: YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE

2009-09-30T11:06:00.003+08:00

Don't take me for an idiot.

I know what you had done.

You think doing such a despicable act at around 5am+ in the morning is fun?

& that I won't know?

If you are ever reading this. NOTE I had enough of your rubbish & nonsense.

If you think it's fun, think again. I shall take action against you if I see you doing this again.

Harassing me? Fun? COME ON.

I still have the SMSes showing you threatening me last year. BRING IT ON. 1yrs+ & you won't leave me alone. Great I think I had given you the chance to stop your crap last year. This year I will not let things go off easily.

School holiday now? So you are doing it again? You wanna ruin your future? Good luck to you.

Think I don't know you still playing Maple? MRMOGU

If you think it's not possible to track the IP of who mega-ed, then pls continue. I need more evidences.

Thanks.

Countdown

2009-09-28T06:52:00.000+08:00

1 more day..& I will be going to put my braces!

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2009-09-10T07:26:00.002+08:00

I almost cannot believe how fast time flies!

今天的我...

2009-08-26T23:06:00.004+08:00

为了小事而感到很快乐~

虽然有点不切实际，但至少让我活在当下，享受这种假设的快乐。

Tuesday rain

2009-08-25T11:45:00.003+08:00

Somehow, today seem to be a rather emo day.

I just feel so frustrated & unhappy.

Haix. I am trying to think positive but still... -_-''

Well, at least eating chocolate helps a little?

Next time maybe I should try chocolate ice-cream.

为什么

2009-08-25T07:23:00.000+08:00

我一点都笑不出来？

depressed

2009-08-05T07:33:00.000+08:00

Have you ever dreamt of losing your way in some remote place & trying to run away from something?

I did, when I was young.

I remembered the sense of fear and loneliness that I felt.

I feel like I was going round in circles looking for the correct path that leads me home or to something, someone or anything familiar.

I kept running.

I reached a crossroad, I was confused on which route to take.

No one to ask, no one to help, I was just on your own.

There's no turning back because I had to keep running.

I was afraid that once I took the wrong path, I might find myself even lost than before.

I don't want to move, I don't want to choose.

But I had no choice. I was forced to choose.

In the end, I was glad that it was only a dream.

Somehow, I remembered that dream recently. I felt like it's coming back.

Maybe except this time I am not alone. A decision has to be made.

I felt lost. Very lost.

I wanted to run, wanted to hide, wanted not to think about it badly.

But can I? No I can't.

Any decision made by any of us will affect our lives & we don't know what is going to happen for the next few years.

Along the way, I kept asking myself what went wrong?

I want to be like most of the people, going to university, studying for a degree, worrying about exam results & not all this shit now.

I know I shouldn't compare & think like this. But I am only 22 years old. I want to be stupid, childish & don't need to think too much.

I need a break & yet I can't.

This isn't a dream. I can't just "wake up" whenever I met into something I don't like.

I detest him. I detest him for bringing all these shit to us.

At the end of the day, he can just get the money & happily wash his hands off everything while we have to struggle on our own.

Bloody hell. This sux.

A new beginning

2009-08-03T07:13:00.000+08:00

It's no longer just empty talks.

This time, it's for real.

I hope I will like the changes & the new life that is to come.

But why do I feel so uneasy?

Shouldn't I be happy?

I bet she doesn't feel any better than I do.

Totally Random

2009-08-02T22:42:00.003+08:00

Yes! I have finally figured out how to re-size more than 1 photo at 1 go.

So happy! If not I really cannot imagine how am i going to "1 by 1" re-size 200+ photos.

Some Sun Yan Zi's concert photos that I found in my camera.

The gossipers

2009-07-29T06:54:00.002+08:00

Recently I heard not-so-nice comments about me at my workplace.

Well, I know people do gossip here & there coz it's human nature. But I still feel kinda pissed when I heard those untrue comments.

You know at the beginning I got this urge to storm up to the person & to whoever to tell them off.

But that would make me seem like some "泼妇" & it will only give them more reasons to say even more nasty things.

This whole thing got me thinking.

Even if I bother to stand up & defence myself & the rest who are being "gossiped", would the gossipers believe?

Nope, they won't. They prefer the other party more, so they trust her more & believed what she said. The other party might say some untrue things but it doesn't matter because they choose to believe.

If you are closer to me, you will tend to believe me rather than the other party.

I come to realise that sometimes, it doesn't really matter who is really right or wrong. People see things from different perceptions, that's why different people can say different things while experiencing the same thing.

Even when there is a small conflict, both parties will have a different story. It's up to the "outsiders" to buy whose story & go around gossiping what they think is correct. Thus, making themselves believe what they are gossiping about.

Chim? That's why people love to say that "it's a complicating world out there".

Anyway, I won't be bothered with what they said since I cannot control & I can't please everyone.

Fear

2009-07-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

I dunno why it's coming back.

What exactly went wrong along the way?

I am not any better, in fact, I am the same as you. Maybe it's I am able to hide things better.

And maybe I am the weird one.

答案是什么？

2009-07-12T21:13:00.007+08:00

Lucky me.

I won a pair of ticket to Sun Yan Zi's 答案是 concert yesterday.

My favourite song that she sang yesterday was 我不难过.

不要再说或许这是最好的结果

现在分手总好过你不爱我一拖再拖

松开你的手离开你左右我向前走这会是我真正的解脱

I can totally feel her emotions in this song. Hmm do you call this "被感动到?"

My next favourite was her new song 愚人的国度 yesterday. Somehow, the song left a deep impression on me.

爱是愚人的国度

不能自拔不懂退出

No wonder people say that love is blind.

Anyway she really has matured over the years & overall I really think her concert was fantastic!

不愧是亚洲天后.

P/S: We shall be sitting infront the next time she held another concert in Singapore, OK?

Transformers: Revenge of the fallen

2009-06-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Transformers today.

At 1st I was kinda worried that I will be disappointed. But it didn't disappoint me at all!

Awesome movie. Really nice.

Although I had to admit at some parts I cannot catch whether the transformers are the good or bad guys. They all look same haha. But still, it's a must watch movie for the year!

=/

2009-06-20T09:10:00.005+08:00

Do you know what you want in your life?

This is a question that never fails to bother me.

To be frank, I have no idea.

Is it because I am an indecisive person?

When I was in secondary school, I think it's ok to not know what I want because "I am still young".

After I went to poly, I can say "I still haven't found what I want in my life".

Now, I still have no answer.

I start to wonder if this is how I gonna lead the rest of my life.

I feel that people around me are changing; they are moving towards their goal except me.

I can't decide on what I want.

It's like running a marathon, everybody start at the same point but they run at different pace with different goals.

Some will reach the end with a breeze while some struggled.

Some might also give up on the way.

But ultimately, everybody runs for a reason. For their own reason.

Some people run for fame.

Some people run for fun.

Some people run to prove they can do it.

Some people run to fulfill their families or friends expectation.

There might also be some people who do not know why or what they are running for. Maybe just for the sake of running?

They don't know.

Just like me, who suddenly got so lost & do not know where I am heading to.

I mean why?

Hmmm..how come I am so lost?

Do you know what I mean?

New Lappy~

2009-06-13T22:11:00.004+08:00

The crowd at the IT fair was crazy!

Anyway I finally bought a laptop. Had been thinking of getting one for quite some time & today I finally got it.

Happy :)

I wonder

2009-06-08T07:33:00.001+08:00

If one day you see the not so "good" part of me,
will your impression of me still stands?

-_-''

2009-06-05T07:17:00.001+08:00

It is really amusing to hear what you all had been saying behind our backs.

It is even amusing to see how facts were distort just because you all do not like us & thinks you all are correct.

1 word for you all.

Pathetic.

Sick

2009-06-02T10:05:00.000+08:00

Cough, flu, sorethroat.

This sux :(

2009-05-27T07:24:00.001+08:00

It doesn't matter what you say of me.

I won't take it to heart because you are not my friend.

It doesn't matter what you think of me.
I won't take it to heart because you are not someone I cared.

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It doesn't matter whether you like or dislike me.

I won't take it to heart because you are not someone I loved.

Well...

2009-05-22T16:46:00.000+08:00

I love the way we communicate.

To beanie (if u are reading this)

2009-05-21T22:32:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the food you got back from Taiwan!

I will pass Dimmy soon!

Birthday?

2009-05-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

It was supposed to be a birthday celebration for Mag but there wasn't any cake or whatever. Haha

Anyway we had buffet at Sakae!

Lots of photos.....

This is specially for Kel. I seriously think you have a 大众脸. You look so compatible even with KY. Haha.

The distracting background.

More random photos.
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A pity beck & pl wasn't there.

Both of you pls take care & we will see you when you are back!

Random~

2009-05-14T07:26:00.005+08:00

Well I have lots of plan in mind & I hope I will really do them & not be lazy.

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Anyway some random pics.

Oink Oink, Moo Moo, Ji Ji, Quak Quak, Meh Meh & Ku Ku

What is it?

It's ah siaos at Mind Cafe!

Haha.

Ok time to rush, I'm gonna be late for work.

梁靜茹 - 情歌

2009-05-12T19:42:00.006+08:00

为她写的歌，

她或许不会知道，

可是那却是属于他的天长地久。

。

原来爱不一定要说出口也可以让人如此感动。

I am sorry to say this but......

2009-05-11T07:11:00.000+08:00

I hope it isn't my problem but at times I really do feel stress being your friend.

It took me quite sometime to realise what exactly is it I am feeling.

It doesn't feel very nice to be always corrected & advised.

It doesn't feel nice to be constantly taught & told what to do.

I know maybe you did & said all that because I am your friend & you did it for my own good, but at times I feel that it's crossing my comfort zone.

Sometimes I do things not because I want to but because I feel pressurized. I don't want to be labeled as 不讲义气 or 不够朋友.

I feel kinda guilty typing this & I hope you won't be reading this because you might be disappointed or angry with me? I don't know. I just need to vent this somewhere.

Maybe I am "anti-social" but I realised the only groups of friends that I am really comfortable with are my "bitches & bastard" & my ah siaos".

X-Men Origins: Wolverine

2009-05-04T07:08:00.002+08:00

Watched this movie over the weekend with my "ah siaos".

I am not a X-Men fan & I have never watched the cartoon before so I did not know what to expect of the movie.

Except the fact that I found myself quite lost at some parts of the show, I think overall this movie is still quite nice. Worth to spend the money to watch :)

Long weekend is over just like that :(

Happiness

2009-04-28T16:24:00.002+08:00

Maybe this is what I am lacking.

Maybe all along I am trying to search for it.

Maybe I tried too hard.

Maybe I failed.

Or maybe I lost myself along the way while searching.

Maybe I don't know what is happiness.

Who really knows?

Am I happy with my life now?

Nope.

Neither am I unhappy with it.

It's just so-so.

Neutral.

But I believe that 1 day happiness will come to me.

Or so I hope.

It's hard

2009-04-21T15:18:00.002+08:00

It's just so hard. Even til now I still can get the very sick feeling in my stomach whenever I see or hear those things that I do not wish to remember.

Why can't you just get on with your fucking life & I get on with mine?

Stop tracking me in-game please. Stop doing all those childish things & get on with your life with your new "girlfriend".

珠光宝气

2009-04-20T07:18:00.001+08:00

I'm so addicted to the show!

43 episodes to go!

sadistic

2009-04-15T16:32:00.002+08:00

或许从一开始，我的心没有真正地在痊愈。

Happening? Ha Ha

2009-04-09T17:10:00.002+08:00

Ok, I just read becks blog & I can't resist but to blog this down. Becks I totally agree with you on the post on people with no life!

Ok, maybe only part of it :P

Anyway I feel that it's extremely funny when some people called me a 宅女 & thinks that they are so happening.

Just because you do more sports & participate in some events doesn't means you are that happening.

Just because I love to play Maplestory doesn't make me a 宅女.

Come on. Different people have different definition of "happening".

I admit I am not a "happening" person. So what? You might think you are, but you are not too.

Playing facebook games, doing quizzes & updating status are so happening eh?

Shouldn't you be out there with your friends? Doing some sports maybe? Or go out to chiong?

I thought you & them are sooooo happening but why are you at home playing facebook?

Uploading your every photo up in facebook are so "happening" too :)

I'm sorry I'm not that "happening" to be that free to upload all my photo to facebook.

Next time before you call me or anyone a 宅女 aka always hide at home, super boring (quoted from someone), please reflect on yourself first. You are not that happening as you imagined too.

It's amusing to see your "plan" backfired. You are neither here nor there now. See who's the one with no "friends" now.

相信

2009-04-03T07:17:00.000+08:00

又是那种感觉好可怕的感觉

我不知道我还能不能相信

我不知道我还有没有勇气再去相信

或许我已经怕了

或许我早已经忘了如何再去相信

Silly?

2009-04-02T17:37:00.001+08:00

I came across something quite funny today.

"I knew a girl that was so stupid that........

1. She called me to get my phone number.

2. She spent 20 minutes looking at the orange juice box because it said 'concentrate.'

3. She put lipstick on her forehead because she wanted to make up her mind.

4. She tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order.

5. She sent me a fax with a stamp on it.

6. She tried to drown a fish.

7. She thought a quarterback was a refund.

8. She got locked in a grocery store and starved to death.

9. She tripped over a cordless phone.

10. She took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept.

11. She asked for a price check at the dollar store.

12. She studied for a blood test.

13. She thought Meow Mix was a CD for cats.

14. When she heard that 90% of all crimes occur around the home, she moved.

15. When she missed the 44 bus, she took the 22 bus twice instead.

16. When she took you to the airport and saw a sign that said 'Airport Left' she turned around and went home."

Wendy is

2009-03-31T17:37:00.003+08:00

super demoralised whenever she thinks about the future.

Haix.

Sometimes it's just so hard to stay positive when reality sinks in and everything comes crashing down.

Forget me not

2009-03-27T17:13:00.001+08:00

You know that feeling.

That feeling of not being able to remember something that you thought you will not forget.

It can be a password, a name, a rhythm or just something random.

You think hard.

Really hard.

You feel like it's at the tip of your tongue.

You feel that you are starting to recall it.

But no matter how hard you tried, you just cannot remember.

You get frustrated.

You get restless.

"Why can't I remember?!"

You feel like tearing your hair.

You feel like screaming.

But you know that it's useless because you simply cannot remember it.

Finally, you give up.

Sick

2009-03-27T07:27:00.000+08:00

Sigh.

So exhausted.

Sick from last saturday. Sore throat, flu & cough.

No more sore throat but the flu & cough simply just won't go away.

I hope I recover fast because I going chalet tml, my maple buddy "soso" coming from Malaysia.

I want to go sing K!

I want BBQ!

温柔

2009-03-26T07:21:00.002+08:00

我给你自由我给你自由

我给你全部全部全部全部自由

这是我的温柔这是我的温柔

还你你的自由还你你的自由

这是我的温柔

就让你自由

:)

2009-03-25T07:15:00.000+08:00

It feels good to know that people I do not really know that well actually trust me that much.

More Time Needed~

2009-03-20T07:08:00.001+08:00

Kelvin's post on 珠光宝气 last week makes me want to watch that show.

But somehow, I cannot find the time for it!

I've dedicated too much of my time to mapling; especially on weekdays. Yes I should stop but I can't.

What motivates me to keep playing are my friends. I am not sure when I will totally stop playing too.

Nevertheless, I shall find time to watch that show since Kelvin had wrote such good review about it. So Kelvin if you are reading this pls paste me the link by leaving a msn offline message or whichever way before you leave for Germany.

I hope it won't disappoint me even though it had disappointed my sis. Haha

Joke of the day

2009-03-18T10:18:00.006+08:00

Something funny.
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Mr Marvin Teo comes back again.

Do what again? Yes, he is asking for maple items again. This time he says he only want the "cape" (sorry to those that don't play games, you might not know what I am saying but it's just something you wear on your character.)

There is only 1 word to describe how I felt.

Amused.

It's been like (let me count) 10 months(?) since we broke up & he still sms me.

Seriously I totally cannot be bothered with him. What rights does he think he still possess? He is nobody but a stranger.

If I have ever let you down, I have nothing to say. But pls do not forget that you are the one that had let me down. You got yourself a new girl while we were still together. You know how painful it was for me that time & yet you continued to do your so called "projects". You didn't spared a thought for me. You cannot be bothered.

Don't talk like I steal those items, I didn't cheat you of it either. When we were together you said we shared. When we broke up, it's in my character & you didn't asked to "divide" it so you have given it up. I am not your bank OK? 10 months later & you claim that it's your? What do you take me for?

Remember you did said that I was too weak & I ought to be nasty to those who did me wrong? Yes? Now I am practicing what you have taught me.

& lastly, pls know that I am no longer the Wendy you know. I will not be pushed around easily. If you decides to let things turn ugly, I have nothing to say.

Don't worry there isn't any hatred or whatsoever.

Why should I hate a stranger?

I am just amused :)

如烟

2009-03-16T07:28:00.000+08:00

有没有那么一朵玫瑰永远不凋谢

永远骄傲和完美永远不妥协

为何人生最后会像一张纸屑

还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳

2009-03-14T18:31:00.002+08:00

我们往往都在追求我们想要的。

但是一得到，我们又害怕会失去。

越是害怕失去，就会失去越多。

我不在乎

2009-03-09T07:08:00.000+08:00

突然间觉得我好像被取代了。可是我一点都不在乎。

2nd priority friends?

2009-02-20T14:38:00.002+08:00

I wasn't expecting things to become like that. But somehow I am not surprised that things end up like this.
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I voiced out my feelings because I take you as a friend but since you can be so nonchalant about the whole thing then I guess so be it then.
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If you think they are "better" & more "fun", then we shall 成全 you. Don't talk like you are being forced to stick to us. Seriously go ahead, be ~~our~~ my guest.

It's not we are boring. It's just that we are always being treated as your "second priority" friends. It sucks & I hate it, & I will not want to be that.

:)

2009-02-19T07:22:00.001+08:00

Coincidentally, 2 of my friends went overseas for their studies this month.

1st 1 is Eileen who went Australia.

Another is 1 of my bitches, becky, who went Taiwan.

All the best to them & hope they take really good care of themselves :)

人

2009-02-14T16:24:00.001+08:00

一个人不是一瞬间就能够被看清楚的

Talks

2009-02-12T07:28:00.000+08:00

I realised I am really very bad at making small talks or having conversation with people.

I am not talking about my bitches & all those people that I am close to.

I meant strangers or people that I know but am not close too. Acquaintance they called it.

Maybe I have a very "dao" face, that's why most people will not take the initiative to talk to me. Even when people try to, my replies can shut them up -_-''

I did not do it deliberately, it's just that I do not know how to reply or continue the conversation.

To think I did learn about how to make small talks in 1 of my module (which I cannot remember the name) in Poly -_-''

My New Fav Song

2009-01-29T15:43:00.002+08:00

蔡依林 - 一个人

从皮包里扯出我们的照片

沙发要移到客厅的另一边

晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟

已经没什么人会埋怨

晴天阴天今天又是星期天

唯一的打算是醒得晚一些

反正我不知道怎样打发时间

出门或不出门没差别

一个人到底应该睡右边或左边

两个人连一次争吵都值得纪念

一个人偶尔感到寂寞再所难免

你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人我重新适应一切不方便

两个人不一定就成全一个世界

一个人关灯看见记忆的横切面

没有光线过去那些情节更明显

Dreams

2009-01-29T07:15:00.000+08:00

I love waking up from a beautiful dream.

It keeps me happy for the whole day.

But beneath the happy mood, there is always this small bit of disappointment.

Disappointed because I know no matter how beautiful the dream is,

it is not real.

Reunion Dinner

2009-01-25T23:00:00.007+08:00

Chinese New Year Reunion Dinner.

We had it at....

Crystal Jade.

I don't really dare to directly take a photo of it signboard for fear of being questioned by the staffs lol.

I had the reunion dinner with my grandma family. Sadly no photos of them as I seriously do not think they are that enthu to take photos.

Their Menu.

The set menu that we had.

These were the 8 course that we ate.

Some of the food like the shark fin and Fried Glutinous Rice were served to us in individual bowls because the table was too full =.=
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1 bad thing was that they served the food too fast. We were practically eating a few courses at 1 go & not like the usual "finish 1 course and serve another course".
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It's like they are rushing us so that they can make it in time for the next batch of people having their reunion dinner.
But still overall, their food is not bad.
At least better than the last time we went there, which was 2 years ago.

Cat in plastic bag

2009-01-24T16:33:00.000+08:00

My cat suddenly decides that she wants to sleep inside a plastic bag.

Maybe it's not that clear from the picture but she was fully inside the plastic bag. We can "da bao" her away. Haha.

I love this photo :)

CNY card

2009-01-22T15:25:00.004+08:00

I received a Chinese New Year Card!

Nothing much to be excited about I know but it's been ages since I received this type of Chinese New Year Card.

Haha. 3 more days to Chinese New Year :)

Are you looking forward to it?

hmmm

2009-01-19T14:27:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it got me wondering. Am I a bad friend?

If not, then why?

Hopes

2009-01-19T08:29:00.004+08:00

Funny how my hopes can be raised so high when I already knew the outcome.

It reminds me of 1 song by Jay Zhou

好想回到过去

Judge me?

2009-01-15T17:00:00.003+08:00

I don't really like it whenever people use their own standard to judge others.

For the I-dunno-how-many-times I am not anti social just because I play computer games. Or to be exact I play Maplestory. In fact I am proud to be a gamer.

Just because I don't do alot of sports doesn't mean I am anti social.

Just because I am different from you doesn't mean I am weird.

If everyone is the same, won't it be too boring?

Anyway I am not childish too. Playing Maplestory is not childish.

If you think it's childish then what are you gonna call those people that does nothing but watch tv all day long? At least I use my fingers you know?

Just because you don't like doesn't mean it's bad or wrong.

Maybe next time I shall condemn you just because you are not a gamer.

Wait..why should I lower myself to your level?

Haha

The pain

2009-01-13T15:13:00.005+08:00

A conversation with miao & Janie last night in Maple brought back alot of memories. Memories that I don't wish to remember, and all that I don't wish to remember has everything to do with him. The him who had hurt me so badly.

It felt as if everything just happened yesterday. All the things that had happened are still very clear in my head. Everything just came back yesterday when I was chatting with them.

I felt like I was being forced to sit through a playback of that time.

2 weeks.

The 2 weeks of my life that I hated.

2 weeks of guessing. Guessing what went wrong between us.

2 weeks of blaming. Blaming myself for I-don't-what on everything that went wrong.

2 weeks of crying. Crying because I felt helpless & the only thing I could do was cry. I cried everywhere & anytime.

2 weeks of self denial. I don't want to believe that something is not right between us. I kept telling myself I am just thinking too much; and I continue to let him feed me with his "fake reassurance".

All these just goes on & on.

Everyday.

While he happily does his "so-called" project with his "project mates".

Until I finally gave up.

He didn't even bothered to reply until I called him.

The only reply I got was 1 word & it was through a sms : Sorry

Sorry. A sorry to end our relationship. No explaination. No nothing. I don't even know why.

I felt like I was given the death penalty with knowing the reason.

Just a stupid SORRY. That's it.

But I suddenly found out that there's a new girl.

8 months passed but the pain still doesn't go away. I don't have any regret. The only regret was that I didn't gave up earlier. Why should I care so much about a bastard.

I am not afraid of him. I am just afraid of the memories.

I don't want to be reminded of the painful 2 weeks.

I know I have become stronger but still not strong enough.

Time will heal the wound. I just need more time.

2009-01-12T07:21:00.000+08:00

I did a count over the weekend & I realised I desperately need to save money if not I won't have enough to study part time!

Sad :(

I hate it whenever money is the problem.

This is giving me a headache. Maybe I just hide home for all the weekends & maybe the amount that I save will be enough.

Sometimes I wished that I can just win some Toto or lucky draw with a big prize $$ & all my money problems will be solved!

HAHA nice dream I know. Who doesn't want to be rich.

-_-''

The Name

2009-01-06T20:12:00.000+08:00

I know I am weak.

Even a name makes me feel so uncomfortable.

Minwen Birthday

2009-01-03T23:59:00.019+08:00

1st birthday celebration of 2009.
Minwen 25th birthday.

Act 1

We decided to give her a surprised gift by ordering a bouquet of flower to her in office early in the morning.

Judging from her expression, I guess she was still in a state of shocked when she received the flower.

Her flower & a close-up of the rabbit.

Photos with the birthday girl.

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Act 2

We celebrated the Minwen's birthday at Mindscafe.

We started with a few games that was not really worth mentioning nor taking photos. (Actually it was more of me busy eating to take any photos haha.)

We then decide to play the all times favourite boardgame.

MONOPOLY!

Look at how excited we are even before we start to play the game. Now you know it's not called the "all times favourite boardgame" for nothing.

Despite our excitement, we didn't managed to finish the game due to lack of time.

The waiter then brought the birthday cake we had bought earlier to the birthday girl.

Look at how serious she is.

Eileen then suggested minwen to "use her mouth & remove the candle holder from the cake".

She looked.........

laughed.........

tried...........

and tried.........

A* for effort :)
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Photos with the birthday girl.

More Photos :)

On top of the flower, we gave her a "super pink" clutch bag since her favourite color is pink.

Anyway happy birthday my friend, hope you enjoyed your day & hope you love the presents :)